Peaceful and Blissful
03Jan84
typical Capricorn
obstinate > compliant
pessimistic > optimistic
introvert > extrovert
planner > spontaneous
dilligent > sluggish
cherish personal time
White Tees
Black Jeans
Pink PSP/DS
White SideTable
Marie France Treatments
Batam Spa Treats
Kelvin
Lyd
Lindy
Wiz
John
Ken
Friendster
XiaXue
To Avoid: Shi Hui (Yr2)
To Catch: Sharon Tan (Yr3), Mui Chan (Yr2), Wen Xiu (Yr2)
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every morning starts like a burden to me.. ever since the day im borned i guess. i dislike the fact that im obligated to waking up early in order to get tasks accomplised. who sets the rules that day = work , night = rest, why cant it be the opposite? lets be flexible. my view is further enhanced ever since im out to the society to work.. i simply dun see many of my colleagues turn into work machines immediately when they settle down on their desk every morning.. as observed: they spend the 1st few hrs to get their hot drinks done & water bottles fill up.. then follow by.. their light breakfast.. and then lazily switch on their pc and get things in order or set the list of stuff to clear for the day. by the time, they think they have alreadi prepared to reali get started on work and dumped the tiredness aside.. well, its lunch time. and bcoz.. the equation : "no food = no energy" applies to almost every one.. they are off for their lunch. and bcoz .. the company is kinda big, time seems to become so rubber that it can stretch to 2 hrs. and by then, its alreadi 2pm. well, its time to get panick for them.. as work seems undone since morning.. and bcoz.. we humans also believe in "decreasing marginal returns", we ought to have a short break. and hence, they decided to do some gossiping, touring in the office.. and there goes another hr. Now, i finally do understand.. why ppl can go home so late.. is not bcoz of the tons of work load (although i do admit.. some stay late bcoz of endless stuff to clear).. but bcoz.. laziness makes up significant composition of a human.
the mornings suppose to be freed from any constrains.. that includes.. time constrain, physical constrain, doing constrain. why do i say that? if you reali know mi.. i have this peculiar habit. i hate to have someone waiting for mi to get my butt out of my house to work, i hate ppl to follow mi ard when im getting my stuff done, i hate to be reminded that i will be late, i hate to answer the call when i fucking awake alreadi, i hate to tok to anyone, i hate to have any physical contacts, i hate to response.. so please.. get away from mi.. if you wanna be juz by my side.. do keep quiet and keep a distance from mi.. and im not joking. im not complaining abt my dar showing affection on mi every morning.. but then.. i juz DUN like it. im so used to go to school alone.. since primary. is not that i dun haf frenz who stay ard mi who can keep mi accompanied during the journey.. but bcoz.. i hate to entertain anyone when im always not sober in the morning. as mentioned.. waking up every morning is a chore. worse than having a terrible nightmare.
was walking home after tuition 2 hrs ago.. the journey was quite a long one. and the silence of the surrounding, the rather cooling weather.. makes mi feel so relaxed. it has been a long time.. i have walked this long distance alone. for most times, dear will be ard.. to walk thru all this shit with mi.. but tonitez.. he has class to attend. do i feel lonely? glad to say.. im not. and im proud of myself in this sense. im not those sort - afraid of lonliness. i wont call or msg anyone.. juz coz im surrounded by nothing. i wont want to double the steps i took to hurry home.. i wont blame my dar for not being ard.. coz.. at times.. i appreciate to have time alone. all by myself. the journey took mi approx 3plus hrs to reach Tp and from Tp back to home. what did i do during these hrs? i read my new book - the family way, i listened to the mp3 which both never fail to be my best entertainment.. ohh ya, i have this habit since young.. i love and enjoy toking to myself.. in my mind of coz.. i dun wan to be mistaken as insane. thinking abt the past, the present, the future.. which i concluded.. i will never get an satisfactory ans to all my qns in mind. but then.. at least i know.. being alone is not the worst.
setting too many goals to achieve may or may not be a gd thing afterall.. as wat we have always learn in school.. "set attainable goals" ya.. in theorical term.. i understand.. in practical.. i still searching the definition of attainable. if i dun set higher.. how would i know.. i cant reach.. and i have been wondering. . if i have set my dreams my goals alittle far too high lately.. i want so many things in life now.. (which i know my family cant provide mi).. as a matter of fact, im still new in the workforce.. achieving these goals seems so vague. but.. i believe by setting some "impossible" tasks in life will without doubt give us drive and motivation to work harder. and maybe bcoz of my character.. who believe so strongly that "hard work always pay", "work come first, play second" - i reali dun mind to the extend of Deteriorating my own health to get wat i wan. the world is so realistic.. no money = no dream.. (no car, no apartment, no degree..),
so can i conclused: i pursuing and falling for the Evil since money is the root of all evil..